I am like a child at school. The new page is always going to be neatly written, and then pouf! . . . a blot. I'm still making blots . . . and I am 40 years old.
More than annoyed, sad. More than sad, unhappy. More than unhappy, suffering.
. . . this feeling of being at someone else's mercy weighs on me tremendously, and when such circumstances are prolonged I cannot find delight in art. . .
Old poor poverty, fried rice with pickled sesame seeds